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Saturday, January 16, 2010

I hate this feeling.

I am anxious. Really, really anxious. All the time. I feel like everyday is a week long. I just want to get into the 2nd trimester already so I can stop worrying so much. I don't think about anything else other than: is my baby ok? I don't feel sick today, is that normal? I'm only how many weeks along??!? Sheesh. I am also having a rough time realizing that I am completely out of control of this situation. I am the type of person who needs to be in control of everything, so this is sort of rough & different.I know I just need to take a mental chill pill & relax, but it's so difficult. I know I just need to enjoy my pregnancy, but it's so difficult knowing I haven't passed "the scary point" yet. I guess all I can do is put all of my trust in God & know He will watch over this miracle I am growing.
::deep breaths::
Now if you'll excuse me, I need a bowl of coffee ice cream. Now.

7 comments:

  1. I'm so sorry you are feeling like that it's normal to fill like that when you reach about 10 weeks go to baby beat .com they rent the hand held doplers to hear the heart beat it will help alot I'm waiting on mine now but it's a life saver let me know if you need to talk i'm sure ur little baby is just fine in it's home try not to worry I no easier said than done. You'll be fine

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  2. Hello!
    I am not sure how I happened upon your site but I did somehow. I have been reading your posts for about a weak and can relate! My hubby & I had a little girl 7 yrs ago and then nothing. We ended up having to have fertility treatments starting last spring. We did get pregnant but like you- we found out really early! I knew 2 weeks after conception that we were pregnant. As happy as I was to finally be pregnant again- that first 12 weeks was hell! Hang in there! Stress will not help and I know that is easier said that done. I am coming up on 29 weeks now. It will pass and before you know it- you will be actually celebrating the pregnancy instead of living in this place of fear! You can do this!!!
    Brenna

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  3. I came across your blog via Mrs. F's blog... Just wanted to say I know the feeling. I've been anxious and worried throughout most of my pregnancy.

    I know nothing can really make you feel better, but your baby having a heartbeat is an excellent step, and you'll be in your second tri before you know it. Hang in there!

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  4. hi! i stumbles upon your blog a few weeks ago, congrats on the pregnancy! your anxiety sounds so familiar to me. i had/have ppd anxiety and it can get the best of me. you may want to bring this up to your doc, because it can be an early sign of getting ppd. if i would have known that, i would've done something about it, but i also thought, well, that won't happen to me. but it did. and it sucks. so i just want you to be aware, and please bring it up at your next doc appt. there is help out there! good luck to you!

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  5. Baby is going to just fine, laur, but I know EXACTLY how you are feeling! I am praying for you guys everyday. Just keep taking care of yourself & baby will continue to grow big & strong :)

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  6. You & the baby are going to be just fine; he/she is growing & getting stronger with each day that passes!! This may not make you feel any better but I know exactly how you are feeling; I did the same thing! We worried & worried & worried through my whole pregnancy really....try to enjoy the days when you are not feeling sick & enjoy knowing that you are growing someone very special in there :)

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  7. Aw thanks guys so much. All of your words helped a lot :)

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