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Tuesday, June 29, 2010

Can I whine for a minute?

I'm tired of being pregnant.

I'm tired of being short of breath even when sitting doing nothing.

I'm tired of feeling dizzy & lightheaded (damn you, GD).

I'm tired of my pelvis feeling like it's going to break off.

I'm tired of looking tired all the time (even though this won't change once baby girl is here, but I'll at least have something to show for it).

I miss sleeping on my back & not feeling suffocated.

I miss fries and cheeseburgers (again, damn you, GD).

I miss wine.

I miss beer.

I just want to meet my baby girl.

Ok, phew. That feels better. I know I still have a little while to go, but I'm already feeling done. I definitely want Claire to keep growing in my tummy, but I seriously cannot wait to meet her & be done with pregnancy.

Don't get me wrong, I am very, very thankful to have this miracle growing inside of me & feeling her kick & wiggle around in there. I'm just... I don't know. Ready to be done.

Now back to being happy & joyful again! My whine session is over :)

Friday, June 25, 2010

I've hit the 30's!

I cannot believe I am 30 weeks pregnant! Time is going by surprisingly fast & it freaks me out a bit.

I'm scared, guys. I'm scared that I know nothing about motherhood. I'm scared that once baby girl is here, I won't know what to do or when to do it. I'm scared we aren't prepared with everything she needs. I'm scared about money once she does come. But one thing I'm not scared about (yet) is labor. I don't know why. Maybe it's because I know I'll be in good hands? Who knows. I'm weird. I know everything will be fine once she is here, it's just the anticipation of the unknown that freaks me out.

Oh and by the way, this whole gestational diabetes thing really sucks. I can't eat anything I want & I hate that. There are SO many carbs in everything I like. Basically I have been living off of turkey sandwiches & peanut butter toast. mmm... I must be doing something right though because every time I test my blood sugar, it's completely within the normal range. BUT, I don't feel any better. Like right now, I feel like I'm going to pass out. I'm really hot & dizzy. I get this feeling about 4x a day. It sucks.

How far along?: 30 weeks!!!!!
How big is baby?: She weighs almost 3lbs & is about 17" long
Weight gain?: I haven't gained any from last week. So, I'm sitting at about 20lbs. Probably because I CAN'T EAT ANYTHING.
Stretch marks?: Well I found some on my boobs this week. But none on the tummy! Yay.
Maternity clothes?: Just bottoms. I live in dresses pretty much though.
Sleep?: Besides getting up once or twice to pee, I've been sleeping great!
Best moment this week?: Swimming at the in-law's yesterday. I felt weightless. It was niiice.
Food cravings?: French fries, doughnuts, chick-fil-a. Pretty much everything I can't have.

Gender?:
girl!

Movement?:
All the time & getting stronger.
Belly button?: non-existent. Seriously.
What I miss?: bad carbs!
Labor signs?: Nope! But maybe in.... 7 WEEKS!
What I'm looking forward to?: My first baby shower on the 18th :)
Milestone?: Reaching 30 WEEKS!!


Notice how my how is styled the same every. single. week? Well that's because I'm in a hair rut. It's at such a weird length that it looks bad when I wear it down & my roots are about 4" long. I'm getting it done next Wednesday, but I don't know what to do! I want something different. Blonder? Darker? Shorter? If you have any suggestions, I'd love to hear them :)

30 Week Belly

ETA: I got my dress from Old Navy like 2 days ago! I'm glad you guys like! Feel free to copy me :)

Wednesday, June 23, 2010

G.D. 101

Yesterday I went to the diabetes clinic to get all educated on this Gestational Diabetes business. I didn't know it was going to be a full on class on how to control your diet.

There were two other pregnant ladies in there, along with my hubby & momma. It was a very informative 2.5hr class about what to eat & how to keep your blood sugar down for me & the baby's sake. The nurse that taught it was AWESOME. She was so good at making all of us feel like this is no big deal & that it will go away when baby gets here. She made me feel at ease by telling me that it's nothing I did wrong to get this but it's all genetics (thanks mom!).

Basically I can't have more than 45g of carbs at a meal & have to have half protein to whatever amount of carbs I eat (i.e. 45carbs & 25g of protein= perfect meal). And let me tell ya, this is going to take some getting used to! There are SO many carbs in everything & not necessarily enough protein to match that.

I walked out of the class with some paperwork & this handy dandy thing:


Yep, I am an official diabetic (for 10 more weeks). I have to prick my finger 4x a day to make sure my blood sugar isn't too high. So far it's been perfect. Hopefully I can keep it up

I had a meltdown in the grocery store last night because I had NO clue what to buy! I was so overwhelmed & ended up leaving with ground beef & some apples. HAHA! Thank goodness my husband is 100% behind me with this & helped me figure out what I should be eating.

This is more of a pain in the ass than anything. But, I keep saying to myself that it's only temporary :)

Monday, June 21, 2010

What a nice way to start my Monday!

So, my doctor's office just called annndddd.....

I have Gestational Diabetes.

Now I have to go to some clinic & have them monitor my blood & tell me how to manage this beast.

At least I pigged out on sugar all weekend in preparation for such crappy news. I'm hoping that since I have this, it will explain why I have been feeling so dizzy & thirsty lately. It will be ok. There is worse things that could happen, no?

I'll keep ya posted as to how this appointment at the clinic goes :)

I hope you all had a fabulous Father's Day weekend!! I can't WAIT for next year so that me & my little family can celebrate!!

Friday, June 18, 2010

29 weeks & a little glucose talk

Happy Friday everyone! Not so much for me. I'm stuck at the hospital for the next 3 hours for this glucose test. I haven't eating since 8 last night, so I'm pretty cranky. I wanted to thank you all for your well wishes on this dang thing.

I just got finished drinking the nasty drink, which by the way has DOUBLE the sugar in it than the first time I drank it. Oy. I'm just hoping I don't get exploding diarrhea again. Seriously, that was awful. My stomach is making weird noises & baby girl is kicking & squirming all over the place.

PLEASE LORD, LET ME NOT MAKE A FOOL OF MYSELF IN THE WOMEN'S BATHROOM, AMEN.

Well, enough of that. Let's move onto more important things. Like, the fact that I'm 29 weeks pregnant. Which means I will have a baby in (give or take) 11 weeks!!! I have to admit that I'm in a small bit of denial. I don't feel prepared AT ALL, because well; I'm not. I keep saying to myself "oh, I still have _ amount of weeks. That's plenty of time to get everything done." I know 11 weeks is a while, but I want to get the big stuff done and over with before I'm so big & uncomfortable that I don't want to get off the couch. Catch my drift?

I guess we'll jump into the survey now:

How far along?: 29 weeks. Holy. Crap.
How big is baby?: about 2.5 lbs
Weight gain?: As of Monday at my Dr. appt, I had gained 4lbs in 4 weeks. So, that puts me at about 20lbs total. I'm guessing that's normal??
Stretch marks?: none, but the way my belly has been itching, I might GIVE myself stretch marks from scratching so hard. I'm trying to refrain from that though.
Maternity clothes?: just bottoms & a few tops. But still getting away with regular tops & dresses.
Sleep?: I still feel like I'm sleeping pretty well. No big complaints.
Best moment this week?: Seeing baby girl on the ultrasound machine with her chubby cheeks :)
Food cravings?: Lemonade from Chick-fil-A. Oh & cheez-its with hot sauce on them. Weird? Hell yes.
Gender?: girl!
Movement?: Constantly. And she has found my ribs. Good times.
Belly button?: Uh, it's non-existent as of now.
What I miss?: being able to clean my house without my feet swelling & hurting
Labor signs?: nope! stay in there baby for at least 8 more weeks!!
What I'm looking forward to?: House hunting this weekend. More on that later...
Milestone?: Making it to month 7!! WOOT!


29 week belly.
That's a fake smile since I was on my way out the door
to come here to the hospital...
Sorry this post is so dang long. It kept my mind off the fact that I feel like I am going to pass out & die of hunger. I'll let you all know how the results turn out!!

Wednesday, June 16, 2010

We are SO immature

My husband & I may be married with a baby on the way, but we obviously aren't grown up enough to not think farts are funny.

I don't know if you have ever heard of The Pooter, but it's a little rubber contraption you put in the palm of your hand that makes very realistic fart noises. My hubby is a youtube whore & finds all sorts of random videos & sends them to me if he thinks I'll laugh at them. Well, he sent me this video & I about peed my pants laughing. Actually, I think I may have. Thanks pregnancy. So anyway, I watched the video & it made me want a Pooter!! HAHA!

Well, after mentioning it to her, my ever so loving mom surprised me with one last week. Forget her buying baby stuff, she bought me a Pooter. Mother of the year ;) Last night hubby & I spent like 2 hours breaking the thing in & doing farting noises on the couch. It was hilarious. I cried I was laughing so hard.

Lord help our child, for she has extremely immature parents.

Seriously, watch this video. I dare you not to laugh




P.s. My doctor just called. I failed the glucose test. Miserably. I have to go in now for the 3 hour testing within the next week. DAMN IT!!

Please pray for me.

Monday, June 14, 2010

Damn you glucose drink!

Ya, I had my glucose test today at my doctor's office.

The actual drink really wasn't that bad. It tasted like orange syrup. Not my top choice of things in ingest on a Monday morning, but I did it. I drank it before I left for the doctor & driving there I felt fine. But once I pulled into the parking lot, I got really light headed, dizzy & my stomach started to gurgle uncontrollably. I barely made it in the damn door before being over come with exploding diarrhea!!! Sorry, that is so gross & totally TMI, but I had to share my experience, duh! I was literally glued to the toilet for a good 15 minutes before I had to get my blood drawn. It was horrible & embarrassing.

Stupid orange drink made me poop my guts out.

I feel fine now & rewarded myself over lunch with a chocolate shake from Sonic. mmmmmm.

On a lighter note, baby girl is doing spectacular. Measuring right on schedule. I even got an ultrasound to make sure she was growing properly. She sure is. Her little face is so chubby already, it's adorable! She's head down as of now (I hope it stays that way for another 11 weeks!!), and constantly kicks her little feet into my ribs. It's such a weird feeling!

Thank God everything is going well! Now let's just hope my glucose test comes back normal. I don't know what I would do if I had to go through that again ::shudders::

Friday, June 11, 2010

28 Weeks!!

Am I really 28 weeks pregnant? Is this real life? When did this happen?

Seriously, I cannot believe that baby girl will be here in (give or take) 12 WEEKS!! It seems so far away, yet so close at the same time. I can't wait to meet this little lady. She is going to turn our lives upside down & I am so freakin' excited!

How far along?: 28 weeks
How big is baby?: about 2.2lbs. Keep growing babe!
Weight gain?: I'm up 2lbs since I weighed myself 2 wks ago. So, I guess I'm staying on track even though I've been eating like arse. I *think* that puts me up about 18.5lbs?
Stretch Marks?: NOPE! But, my belly has been SO itchy this week. It's so hard not to scratch it. It's obviously stretching.
Maternity Clothes?: bottoms, yes. Dresses & most shirts, no.
Sleep?: meh. It depends on the night.
Best moment this week?: Having one of my best friend's come visit me for the day!
Food Cravings?: Nothing really. Just food.
Gender?: still a girl...
Movement?: duh. I have a gymnast living in my womb. Constant movement!
Belly Button?: totally not there anymore! It's completely stretched & flat. I don't know if it will ever pop. But it's SO weird looking
What I miss?: being able to take my puppy on walks without getting severe stomach cramps. I can't walk anywhere without getting a cramp or 5 in my stomach :(
Labor Signs?: NOPE! Maybe in 9 weeks... AHHH!!
What I'm looking forward to?: Having my husband come home tomorrow!! My gosh it's been a long week!!!
Milestone?: I can no longer see my lady bits. Yep. definitely a milestone to celebrate. HA!

This was taken Tuesday when my sweet friend Melissa
came to visit me all the way from Georgia :)
I. LOOK. HUGE.
Sorry about the grungy look.
This was taken last night when I was being a bum See, no belly button!

Thursday, June 10, 2010

Is it inevetable?

First off, I'm so sorry for my lack of blogging/commenting this week. One of my best friends from Georgia came out here on Tuesday for the day just because (she flies free). I hadn't seen her since January, so it was really nice to catch up.

So anyway, I'm back & I wanted to talked about something I have been noticing within the last month or so. I don't know if it's my nurturing instincts coming to the surface & getting ready for this little life I'm about to be in charge of or what, but I have been so attached to my husband & dog lately. Before you laugh & roll your eyes, let me explain:

My husband & I work full time, so we leave our puppy home all day. This is nothing new. She knows no different. But lately, I have been overcome by guilt whenever we have to leave her in the morning. All I ever want to do is cuddle with her & take her on walks & make her life as enjoyable as possible. The guilt literally eats at me all day while I'm at work & all I ever do is worry about her. Is she ok? Is she happy? Is she too hot? too cold? It seems that I never want to leave her home alone. & when we do, I just feel sad & guilty. It sucks.

Also, my husband has been out of town since Sunday & doesn't come home until Saturday. This is a long time of course, but he does this trip every year. But this year, I have missed him more than ever. I worry about him constantly, wondering if he's hurt or ok since we can't talk for long periods of time. I've been full of separation anxiety. I know it's not healthy. We need our time apart, I get that. But, why am I feeling like this? I just feel the need for him to be with me 24/7.

Am I feeling this way because my "motherly instincts" are coming out? Will I be like this when Claire gets here? A constant worry wart? I'm so scared I'm going to be one of "those" paranoid moms that doesn't want to let her child out of her sight. I don't want to be like that!

Any suggestions on why I'm feeling this way all of the sudden? And will it stick around when baby comes?

Monday, June 7, 2010

7 years ago today,

a cocky 15 year old jock asked out a pale, shy 15 year old cheerleader & from that day on; their lives had never been the same.

Through 4 years in high school of laughs, tears, rumors, break-ups, heartbreak & love; we made it out happy & together.

Who would have thought 7 years ago, that we'd be happily married & expecting our first child?

Not me.

Time sure does fly.


Homecoming '03
Sophomore year

In Vegas with our families.
This day was our "5 week" anniversary. HAHA!
I remember that day vividly.
And no, those are not real orangutans ;)

Engagement photo 2007

High School Graduation

Wedding Day, 2008




Also, today is my mom & dad's 24 year Wedding Anniversary.

So, HAPPY ANNIVERSARY MOM & DAD! I LOVE YOU!

I will always strive to have a solid loving marriage just like theirs.


Friday, June 4, 2010

27 WEEKS!

Well, I am officially in the 3rd AND LAST TRIMESTER OF THIS PREGNANCY. OH MY GOSH. ::throws confetti::

I can't believe how fast time is going. It's unreal. In 3 months, I am going to have a baby. A living human to care for. That is scary, surreal, exciting & nerve wracking all at the same time. And I can't wait.

How far along?: 27 weeks
How big is baby?: Approx. 2 lbs and the length of a Barbie doll. That's what my book told me. lol.
Weight Gain?: I've been terrified to step on the scale since our vacation. So, I don't know.
Stretch Marks?: Nope! ::crosses fingers & toes is stays this way::
Maternity Clothes?: All pants & some shirts. Dresses & skirts are regular.
Sleep?: Now that I'm in my own bed with my friend Snoogle, it's been amazing! Except for last night at 4am when baby girl decided to have a dance party on my bladder.
Best Moment this week?: I'll keep this one to myself. If you get my drift... ;)
Food Cravings?: Watermelon & corn on the cob! I LOVE summer.
Gender?: GIRL!!!
Movement?: Crazy- insane- bladder punching-rib kicking movement. Sometimes I think she's sprawled out in the shape of an X. Like with her arms and legs out. Because I feel movement all over. It's so weird! I really want to know her exact position.
What I miss?: Being able to get out of bed without using all of my strength while moaning.
Belly Button?: Completely stretched to the max. It HAS to pop soon, right?
Labor Signs?: No, but how about in 10 weeks?!?!
What I'm looking forward to?: Seeing my sister next week!
Milestone: Reaching the 3rd trimester, derrr!



My arm looks really long & deformed in this. ew.




Wednesday, June 2, 2010

So, I've totally been MIA.

And I apologize. Things around here have been CRAZY lately. We had a blast on our little vacation & I jumped right back into the craziness of work, which explains why I have taken a blogging hiatus!

I hope you all had a wonderful Memorial Day Weekend. Hubby & I had a great time in sunny St. George. We spent the weekend relaxing, eating & shopping-which was fantastic. I think I took 2 pictures total. I suck at picture taking for real. Oh, & baby girl made out pretty well with everything we got for her. Gymboree outlet + Children's Place outlet + Osh Gosh B'Gosh outlet= $$ spent on miss Claire. She got some adorable things for cheap!! Mainly for next summer though.

But Memorial Day weekend is always a bit of a sad time of year for my family. It is the anniversary of my Grandma's (dad's mom) death. I cannot believe it has been 3 years. It was the worst weekend of our lives as we literally watched her die, so it's hard not be a little sad this time of year.

Also, my co-worker's longtime boyfriend passed away yesterday morning of liver failure, so it's just a hard week for all of us and it's also why I'm being a bad blogger. Because I'm the only one at work this week & haven't had time to do anything besides work! So, I'm sorry!

I hope you're all having a great week. I'm so glad it's already Wednesday!! WOOT!