First off, I'm so sorry for my lack of blogging/commenting this week. One of my best friends from Georgia came out here on Tuesday for the day just because (she flies free). I hadn't seen her since January, so it was really nice to catch up.
So anyway, I'm back & I wanted to talked about something I have been noticing within the last month or so. I don't know if it's my nurturing instincts coming to the surface & getting ready for this little life I'm about to be in charge of or what, but I have been so attached to my husband & dog lately. Before you laugh & roll your eyes, let me explain:
My husband & I work full time, so we leave our puppy home all day. This is nothing new. She knows no different. But lately, I have been overcome by guilt whenever we have to leave her in the morning. All I ever want to do is cuddle with her & take her on walks & make her life as enjoyable as possible. The guilt literally eats at me all day while I'm at work & all I ever do is worry about her. Is she ok? Is she happy? Is she too hot? too cold? It seems that I never want to leave her home alone. & when we do, I just feel sad & guilty. It sucks.
Also, my husband has been out of town since Sunday & doesn't come home until Saturday. This is a long time of course, but he does this trip every year. But this year, I have missed him more than ever. I worry about him constantly, wondering if he's hurt or ok since we can't talk for long periods of time. I've been full of separation anxiety. I know it's not healthy. We need our time apart, I get that. But, why am I feeling like this? I just feel the need for him to be with me 24/7.
Am I feeling this way because my "motherly instincts" are coming out? Will I be like this when Claire gets here? A constant worry wart? I'm so scared I'm going to be one of "those" paranoid moms that doesn't want to let her child out of her sight. I don't want to be like that!
Any suggestions on why I'm feeling this way all of the sudden? And will it stick around when baby comes?
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